mel_bels_drumr

so, this is my new live journal with my new name and new beginning. i used to be babylove07 but when  i was updating my old journal this morning, and after looking at all the old posts from over a year ago, i am just in a different place than i was then. i was more in the 'controlled eating' communities, i was suffering from anorexia went down to 79lbs, so i went to therapy, i'm doing better now. i have crohn's disease, so it makes it really hard for me to eat, plus it was a good excuse not to. but i'm on a diet plan now, and staying away from those kind of communities that are very triggering. i was diagnosed with crohn's disease at 18, i had major surgerys, i was in the hospital for almost a year. died on the table twice and spent most of my time in the intensive care unit. i hate hospitals. the thought of them alone will throw me into a panic attack. but yet i have to go back at least once a month because the pain gets so bad. it sucks but i'll deal.
there were some old people in my life who are no longer in my life who knew my username for my lj and i wanted everything to be annonomys so i can feel free to write anything and everything i wanted.
i have a '6th sense' i guess, i can sense people.... its hard to explain, i can tell whether people are 'good' or 'bad'. if they are safe or violent. i can feel their 'energy' (i dont really like that term but that is what it feels like) i know if they are sad, happy, if they have an addiction problem, or marital problems. when i go into a building i get like flashbacks or something of what has happened in the house. i can see faces, sense genders and personalities. i see auras, i've seen them ever since i can remember. i know before someone dies..... i'm not going to go into much more. maybe i'll write about it later.
i play the drums and write music. i also play the piano, and i used to play the violin, i'm going to be taking more lessons so i can re-learn what i forgot. i also have an awesome music program on my mac where i can help people record their music, mix it, and put it on a cd. i love helping people get their music up and running. 
so ya, thats a bit about me.
peace out for now
mel